The past two
months have literally been the best moments of my life. On April 8 of this year
Matthew officially asked me to be his girlfriend.
It was super sweet the way the whole asking process went down.
a few hours before he asked me :)
Well let me
start from the beginning….to make a long story will kinda short, Matt and me
have been friends since January. We officially met one another in November but neither
of us remember that so lets just say we met on Friday (or maybe it was
Saturday) night in January. It all went down at a mutual friend Dannelle’s
house. A big church group crowded into her living room to watch Avatar (which
is Matt’s favorite movie by the way). Afterwards, we introduced ourselves to
one another and Matt explained how he loved running 5K’s and at the time worked
at Lulu Lemon. I recently retired from track (I know its kinda sad) and was
really interested in running 5K’s too so we set a date to workout together on
Monday and go to an aerialing class (im sure that’s not grammatically correct
but oh well).
Fast forward
to April 7th, several dates, long talks, and vulnerable
conversations later I found myself the day before Easter looking around Target
and the Dollar Store for Matt’s favorite candy and super hero accessories.
While walking up and down each aisle so excited and eager to see the look on
his face as he opens the Easter basket I affectionately put together I stop in
my tracks at Target as the vulnerable thought “I love Him so much” comes to
mind. WAIT!?! Did I actually just process that? Could that possibly be true?
No…no no no…but I actually REALLY do love him! But of course my juvenile self
comes to the conclusion that I would never ever tell him that! Stubborn
“Brandi” will wait until he says it first! Fast forward to 9ish that nigh, I
arrive at Matt’s house and do the same thing we do almost every time. Briefly
say “hello” to his roommates and then dart directly to his balcony that over
looks Universal Studios (psss by the way it’s a gorgeous view at night time).
While sitting under a blanket of his we look into one another eyes, which is
such a common, and now a form of “hello” for us. And then I think THAT foreign
yet so familiar thought again! “sigh, I love Him!” (come on now Brandi GET
CONTROL of yourself!)
THEN THE
UNEXPECTED YET SOMEWHAT EXPECTED HAPPENS….
Matt
explains that He has been wanting to say something to me all day but really
didn’t know how to say it. (is he seriously going to say what I think he’s
going to say) He explains that he told two other people this, about this feeling towards me and he hasn’t gonna
go another day without saying it to me…..”Brandi, I don’t care if you don’t say
it back, but I LOVE YOU!” (PTL!!! I am so thankful Im not the only one!!!)
As calm as I
could muster up into words, I responded, “That’s funny, because I love you
too!”
There is
such a freedom in vulnerability. I hope I’m not the only girl out there that is
deathly afraid of being the first one to say I love you but for some reason I’m
sure I wont be the last!
- Wuv U
Wednesday <3 -